I will always carry you
I cherish every memory
Sweet or not
I will carry you close
Deep within my heart
SILENCE
Silence
Will always be the deadliest answer of them all
REFLECTIONS
You will never be enough
For the wrong person
You will always be enough
For the right person
FK
It was never my intention to hurt you
I don’t deserve you
Bleeding still you wait
Still looking at me with eyes of love
I’m afraid of this
It seems too good
How can I explain to you
That you deserve a love so pure
One that I can’t offer you
Even if I tried
I’m rotten
And I can’t change it
I tried
But I keep hurting you
Intentionally or not
I need to let you go
Because I don’t deserve you
SPEAK YOUR TRUTH
Life is too short
To leave words unsaid
WHY I SELF SABOTAGE
I stay away from love
Because I feel unworthy of it
I AM DEEPLY SORRY
The ocean whispers
What has to be mourned
I find solace in the truth being told
The waves crash
Memories torn
I stare at the mirror
My pale reflection
My soul does not recognize what I have become
What I have done
Those that I have hurt
The pain that I have caused
I lay and reminisce
Wishing I could go back
But all I can do
Is be better today
Be better tomorrow
Never bleed on those who never wounded me
LOVER’S INDULGE
I water you
You water me
It isn’t magic
It is alchemy
SPIRITED AWAY
I buried your memory
And drowned it with sorrow
As you were completely clueless
Laying in your bed
Lingering to my sweet scent
Within your shared lips
A few days later wondering
Playing back each day
Trying to figure out why I changed like day into night
My feelings disappeared
I wasn’t expecting it to be that sudden
To be honest
I guess it comes with age
It just gets easier to move on
From this mere disenchantment
Tonight this ode is for you
For better or worse
I met you
And just the same way
I leave you
11
I once fell in love with a poet
He spoke my love language
Drowned me in a love so deep
That I swam away from
My heart was weak
Full of fear
I saw his scars
His tales of love and what his fury could do
He was the flame that ignited a light within me
We were alchemy
Transmuted our pain
With love and our souls reigned
He would undress me with words
Seduced me with his thoughts
I like to wonder what would have happened
If he would have been honest
If I wasn’t so scared of loving again
They say sometimes you meet the right person but at the wrong time
I had that feeling with you
But time has fucked everything for me
I have starved it and allowed it to rot away in the cellars of my mind
It is a construct
One of which I have no control
But the time will never be right
So that wasn’t why we failed
It was never about time
It was about the sheer and blight fear
That divided our shadows
We never got to heal
I light a candle tonight for you
For us
And for what perhaps may never be
