IRONIC NOSTALGIA

How can you miss a moment

That you are currently living?

I lay down next to him

Hugging his arms as I wrap mine tight

I kiss his forehead goodnight

Our bodies still beating at the same time

Our hearts singing the same song

I yearn for him even in his presence

I call it

Ironic nostalgia

It makes me immerse myself more in the moment

To recall each small detail

To indulge into everything a bit more

Because when the sun rises and we are no longer together

I can rejoice in that moment

Where I was already missing those moments we were sharing

LOOKING FOR MYSELF



I have been searching for myself
In empty corridors
In crowded spaces
I am not even sure at what point I lost myself
My essence, my emotions, my dreams, my fears
Not feeling like myself
Because I wasn’t being myself
I was being there for everyone
But failed to show up for myself
I admit this as a harsh truth
Sitting on a plane with mixed emotions
Now on the journey to find the woman I was
I feel close
Working everyday to unravel my thoughts
When I find my true self
I will love her
Give her all the love she needs
Invest time in her dreams
Put her as a priority always
Learn to say no
May the vision become stronger
The circle smaller
I smile because I see her in the mirror
Somewhere in there
And she smiles back at me

TRYING WITH FEAR

Stuck in an abyss

I lost myself

And found myself in the same spot as before

Forgetting the world is round

I accept my present

But that does not mean

I do not care about my future

I will work endlessly to change things

Fail and fail

Until things work out

I am tired of being scared

I will try with fear

HEALING IS NOT LINEAR

Healing is painful
To open up vaults you wish to have forgotten about
Peeling each layer
Living once again with that pain
Acknowledging it
Giving it space in your life
Place it on the table centerfold
Adorn it with flowers
To seek peace
Find closure
This is how we heal

TWO PATHS

Stuck between two paths
I forge my own
Seeking happiness
Wanting to truly love
And be loved in return
For once and for all

DAD

I see myself in you
You see yourself in me
I strive to make you proud
To make you smile
To hear you laugh
I will forever be grateful to you
For showing me what love is and isn’t
You weren’t perfect
But neither am I
Always striving to be a better you
Your honesty and drive molded me
To become a constant masterpiece of art under construction
Ready to be painted in new hues
With bold and bright colors leaving out any room for any regrets
Today I wish to thank you for simply everything
I love you so much
This poem cannot allow to express just how much I feel to be contained within words
Perhaps with a birthday hug you will feel all of this love
In just one touch

CLOTHED IN STRENGTH

I decided to be strong
Because it was my only choice
I decided to speak my truth
Even if it hurt others
I am tired of running
I am tired of lying
I am so sorry
But this too shall pass

RENACER

La desilusión de amar
Y renacer con ese mismo amor
A ser tu mejor versión

RECLAIM

I reclaim myself
The real me
The wounded me
That needs to heal
And stop bleeding on anyone that gets too close
As this month comes to an end
I forgive myself
Give space to this rebirth
Healing and growing
Never stopping

9:32

How can I lose something
That was never mine?